"Leading Through My Fears."

Did you know that as a kid I would wake up in the middle of the night screaming at the top of my lungs? Not to mention that I ran to my parent’s room because of my nightmares? I was the type of kid that was terrified of the darkness, closets, clowns, dolls, etc. Most of probably came from all of the scary movies that I watched as a little kid and my interest in them though the nightmares made me sweat, of course my dad got frustrated after a while and told me the typical; “You have to face your fears” but I didn’t have the guts to face them. Now I’m in college and it was just recently October, the month of horror, I happened to have gone to the “Trail Of Terror” with a couple of friends and just one look at the place made my blood turn ice cold as I got a flashback of all the dreams that I had as a kid and blocked out for years. So you see the thing that was kind of ironic was that all of us were a bunch of babies. Go figure right?  Well just staying in line was an experience with 40 year old guys soaked in blood with chainsaws giving you chills but as we were about to enter the trail of terror we were told that we needed someone in the front. The choice was a landslide, I was voted to go first and surprisingly I took it without hesitating. Clowns, dolls, and insane people (literally) you name it, every single nightmare. I just walked in and went right through… no hesitation. It might not be a big leadership experience but it was pretty big for me.

“Can I Get A Flashlight So I Can Out Of This Tunnel?”

Almost everyone has that certain someone that they want to help but no matter how hard you try, it just seems that they don’t want to help themselves. As of right now I have someone like that in my life and I believe that person can do much better then anyone else expects, the catch is…. They don’t seem to have a gram of faith in themselves no matter how many times they prove to me, everyone and even themselves that they are able to do whatever they please with just a little pint of self confidence. But it’s all “Jokes And Laughs” isn’t it? It’s the time to have the time of your life, that’s what teenagers are expected to do at their age. Well you know what?  They’re right. It is the time to have the time of their life but we also have to be responsible for ourselves, why waste life by cutting it short and having an insecure future? I should probably let you guys know that I took AP Psychology in high school and I know that’s probably not nearly enough to help people like that but I’ve had experiences like this in high school and I was close with my AP teacher as she taught me of how much people can have with confidence and a clear view of life. Now the toughest things about situations like these is that sometimes the person becomes contradicting and that’s the frustrating part, especially when they listen and agree with you but still end up making old mistakes. Do these people actually have a chance to change their ways? In my own personal opinion, I pull all the cards out on the table and ask them if it’s worth caring about them… It just turns out that they want me to care for them and that’s just enough for me to not give up no matter how dark the tunnel is right now, I’ll find the exit sooner or later.

"Give Me A Map And I'll Show You Where The 'Giraffe Women' Live!"

"Everything has to do with geography." Judy Martz 

Indians in the West, Culture conflicts up in the Middle East, Climate problems up in the North and Political changes down South. Oh Geography class! How much I've learned from you and I've actually enjoy it! Yea I know.... Geography? One of the classes that usually everyone dreads, but to be honest I don't know why. The class consists of various powerpoint slides where the teacher points and/or talks about cultures and give interesting side notes of the region/country/continent to keep us even more attentive on the subjects presented at the class. Did you know that the Women in the Padaung or Kayan Lahwi (A subgroup in Asia)  culture have to wear necks rings since they are 5 years old and that's how they got their nickname as the "Giraffe Women". Punishment for adultery? Take the rings off and since their neck muscles have become atrophied by the excessive amount of time wearing the rings, they have to live their rest of their lives laying down. Now I know that seems kind of crazy and all but its their CULTURE and I find it so interesting to find out things like that which are out of the ordinary. The crave this semester for that class has become so intense that my lowest Exam grade for it is a 94.  The class is demanding when it comes to memorizing countries and other continents plus the facts of the different regions but when you're having fun in a class and your eyes and ears have full attention on the subject, the class is not a class anymore, it's an incredibly enjoyable lifetime event.

"Not Only Am I Cozy But I'm Also Being Productive!"

Where else can you possibly find the double Cs  with a side dish of silence for a study place? No idea? I do Ever been to the Student Center's Fire place? A room located on the third floor of the center designed only for students to be able to have a secured study place to work on their homework practically at any time  they please to be productive. Now I know hat you're asking, what are the double Cs ? Well it's just the simple combination is for a study place. Now this is my personal favorite thing about this place, it not only provides comfortable couches and a pleasant environment but it exposes an extraordinary view of the campus with its enormous windows. In here I've experienced looking at the different seasons and weather, from sunny days to rainy to windy and even snowy, now if you're the type of person who likes to observe sweet mama naturaleza (Mother Nature) I recommend for to you to go here. The last thing that this place has that is pretty attractive to people such as myself where I need space for myself is that there's not a lot of people who go there, its always very presentable, and to me... Well it's my favorite place in the entire campus.

" Organizing Emotions Is Far More Effective"

“There are thousands of causes for stress, and one antidote to stress is self-expression. That’s what happens to me every day. My thoughts get off my chest, down my sleeves and onto my pad.”

It’s finally the month of November, and I couldn’t be any happier. Why you ask? Well the reason why is because it’s a whole new month and a whole new month to sew myself together from the past few weeks of October that have brought me down entirely to the point where I couldn’t handle simple task that I did in my usual schedule.  At the lowest point I remembered something crucial…. Why am I bottling everything up? I mean what’s the point of that? My friends continuously told me that I was always my own worst enemy because of my over thinking in every situation I’m in and they’re absolutely right on target. In the past summer I told myself that I would keep an online diary where I can organize all my thoughts in a single space or in this case; a screen.  So far I haven’t fulfilled my own promise to myself and I’ve been going downhill,  that sort of became the consequence for being unorganized and let admit to you that it wasn’t the best feeling… But that’s all good and done as I started typing out feelings again and according to the article that I read recently, emotions are leading factor on how we act and it affects our actions in a great percentage.

"You're Inflating My Ego!"

            3.0? Check. Same classes as everyone? Check. Changed the teacher’s mind about my grade because I felt it was unfair? Check. Will someone tell me who made this “To- do” list? It seems that almost every student have a large share of similarities in their academic history, now why do you think that is? Now in my class we talked about how does grade inflation affect us in our individuality, apparently we agreed that it debases the term “out of the ordinary” as we start learning consciously and unconsciously to not do as much work as the hard working students only because the teachers are suddenly curving their test grades and changing grades. The laziness is easily spreading out but how can you even blame the students when these teachers are becoming more and more gullible and vulnerable to students who strongly demand a better grade for honestly no reason. It has become a cycle and the cycle only gets worse as the cycle only keeps boosting the student’s ego to never be wrong and to reject and deny the accusation of having a bad grade even if they know they’re doing average work. There’s been a study about college students to prove that they have become far less working then what generations before have done as it quoted “This would mean that today the amount of work required of an undergraduate student is similar to what a high school student needed to accomplish 40 years ago.” if you want to read the article here it is “Data suggests that college students are getting lazy.”